There’s something about a clear night sky that’s riddled with stars you don’t normally see in the city. something nostalgic. Something that calms you… That the adult in you starts to get anxious.
Anxious because you know that this sight is but fleeting. That this calm will not forever stay in your heart… Your heart that’s smiling yet crying in pain and longing.
Staring at the night sky in the few occasions that the brood is in this sort of summer house in the province with fewer lights on and not as rowdy as we would normally be. Few drinks in and we were just telling stories and kinda had some glowsticks to play with – the night sky was a welcome sight.
It made me wish that I could just lie down on the grass and stare at it forever. Made me wish I had the luxury of time and even money to do so. Alas, I do not. Not the time, not the money to stay there and not go drive back home and go to work the following day…
I had to just stare, look and I guess take it all in for what it is.. immensely beautiful and utterly overwhelming. A simple reminder that something is absolutely greater than my heartaches, my pain and my loneliness.
if only it were that easy…
